Intruduction and goals

 I wanted to s document  my journey of manifesting my goals from beginning to end. When I first learned about the law of attraction a few years ago I begin searching the internet for testimonies and experiences from real people but I could only find it from life coaches and people selling law of attraction  products. In other words, people who had something to gain from me believing in the law of attraction. How could I trust them? So I'm going to do the best I can to follow all the law of attraction techniques I can find(for free, I'm not going to buy anything) put it into practice and share the results and experiences with you guys.

I'm 27 and still live with my parents. I'm unemployed and get 444 dollars a month from unemployment. I have social anxiety disorder and have trouble talking to people and making friends. I often have low energy and feel unmotivated and fearful.

My goal is to manifest 50,000 dollars get my own apartment, become more energized, confident and make new friends by December, 22, 2012( before the world ends lol). I will make a video/post at lest once a week documenting my progress.

Seed money

The idea behind seed money is you give money with faith and gratitude that you will receive 10 times (or how many times you can make yourself believe) the money or what ever you want back. Yesterday I donated 25  dollars(recurring monthly) to LA mission who feeds the homeless and 1 dollar to charity navigator. I asked for a 100 fold back. I feel grateful

Social Anxiety 10 day mini course

Today I started a 10 day min course on handling social anxiety.  I will be buying the whole course soon. The first lesson is to visualize what my life will be like when I cure my social anxiety. It has to be a vivid vision complete with sight sound touch smell and more. Sounds like using the law of attraction to me :). Going to do it.

My First Ah Ha Moment

I've never had and epiphany before. Every realization I've ever had came over long periods of time. When I first learned about the law of attraction 4 years ago I didn't go wow this is amazing! I said hmm this sounds interesting, it'd be cool if it was real. I've always been interested in the idea that there's something spiritual out there helping us in our lives but at this point in my life I was really down and wasn't going to get my hopes up.

I spent the nest 3 years reading about and trying it out every once in a while with mixed results.

Then last year I watched a youtube video that gave me my first ah ha moment. It was Bob Proctor talking about paradigms. The idea is all of our habitual thinking and actions are controlled by our subconscious mind which has been collecting data since we were born creating our paradigms/habits. The only way to change our paradigms is through repetitively putting the right info in our heads and leaving out the bad.

Until then I have just been reading law of attraction/ success material every once in a while and very rarely applying anything I've learned into my life. It never occurred to me that my lack of consistency and commitment was the reason why I wasn't getting the results I wanted. So I started reading/ listening to the martial more often, which is a challenge sometimes because I get bored easily.

Now I'm going to try to consistently apply the things I learn to my life. I'm going to focus on one ( or two) books at a time and apply the exercises to my life and report back on what happens on this blog and my youtube channel. Right now I'm reading Psycho- Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz and    Seed Money The Law of Tenfold Return by Jon P. Speller